I have always been keen about turning older, and have not really mind ageing at all. Honestly, birthdays are not a thing in our family. There are no cakes, no cards, and no spectacles. Albeit growing up without the excitement to look forward to as we turn another year older, I will always be excited when it comes to birthdays. No idea why, I guess it might just be me.
This year, I turned 24. Honestly, how am I 24? Where had the time gone? But I am happy to reach this age because with age comes the maturity and lessons that I have learned from the past years. Gladly, I will take each year if it means that I will get to keep learning amazing things and seeing beautiful places and meeting interesting people.
When you come to think of it, I am not the same as I was a year ago. I am, most definitely, not the same as I was ten or thirteen years ago. Thank God for that, I guess, since I had always been a bratty kid and an angry teenager. I was just horrible, really. Not even going to lie about that, because, as embarrassing as it is, I was still ‘me’ during those angst phases of my life. But thank God for growth, and there were times where my bratty and angry side would still come up every once in a while, or when I get triggered. But I am grateful that these traits are not as prominent anymore. At least, I think so.
Then of course, there are the people who have made a prominent impact in my life. They have been there for me through my up’s, down’s, and everything in between. These are my friends and my family who have been my constant support through the years. There are also the people whom I loved and cherished but left me in the end. The guys whom I devoted my love into, who have turned out to be such disappointments. The family members whom I truly cherished but left me for heaven. I think about them every once in a while, and think to myself what my life would have been like had they stayed. Obviously, it would not be the same.
Five years ago, I had never even thought about travelling full time. If you had asked me what my plan was before I went to university, I am pretty sure I would say that I plan on going straight to Law School. Ha, I am such a comedienne.
In fact, nothing in my life had turned out the way I planned it when I was younger. Although two of my constant dreams as a child had come true: moving to New York, and being a writer. I knew I have always wanted to write, and it is still so crazy to me that I get to do what I love as a living. Plus, I have always dreamed of living in New York, and it is also so crazy to me that I got to live in New York straight out of university. These are dreams I have taken with me as a child and have made them come true as I got older. To say that I am utterly happy would be an understatement.
But honestly, that is the adventure that I get to live every single day. Not knowing what step I will take next nor not knowing what my life would be like in the next coming years is such a beautiful mystery. I do not know why but there is such a sense of thrill in not knowing what life would throw at you. Life is so mysterious, indeed. Truthfully, I would not have it any other way, because if you knew what life would be like tomorrow, then where is the fun in that?
I cannot say that life will be easy, but I do know that it will be worth it–it always has been. I do not know what I will be like in a year’s time, but I am eager to find out.
Massive thank you to everyone who remembered me on my special day. I cannot wait to dive into this year head first and with an impeccable sense of thrill, love, and adventure. This year will be so special, and I do know that this year will be the year that I will be published for the very first time. I cannot wait to work on my personal goals and career aspirations, and I cannot wait to succeed. With God by my side, I know that I can do every good thing that I set my mind into. Plus, with the right people by my side, I know that I will be happy. It is just so important to surround yourself with the right people, because the right people make you glow inside and outside.
Anyway, please enjoy these portraits that my cousin took of me for my birthday.
For now, I will enjoy the chilly bed weather caused by the downpour here in my tiny corner of the world. Please be safe, friends, and wear your face masks all the time. Plus, wash your hands and sanitise consistently. We shall get through this pandemic together. I love you all, and blessings!
“Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous be shaken.”
Psalms 55:22 NIV