Now here’s a scary thought: self love.
I always thought that loving myself before others was wrong and selfish, so I pushed my personal needs and feelings aside so I could focus on others. I always told myself that it’s better this way, and that it was the right thing to do…or so I thought.
It never really occurred to me that I was loving myself the wrong way. Whenever my (then) boyfriend or any of my friends needed something done, I would do it. Whenever they were feeling bad, I would be there for them. Whenever they were so agitated because of me, I would blame myself for always being a bitch. I suffered so much that I got so exhausted mentally and physically. I got so sick and depressed because of this, and it made me realise that I was living in a constant state of denial. I was always there for the people I sacrificed myself over–but when I was the one in need, there was nobody else there except myself.
After battling with my conscience whether I should just give myself a break from all these toxic habits, I finally did it. I chose myself over others first. I put my needs and wants first. I always did what made me happy. I finally learned and am still learning on how to take care of myself. I would like to think that I am better now.
You see, there’s nothing wrong with self love. We need to find our true worth first before we try to see the worth of others. We need to learn how to love ourselves first before we try to love others. Most importantly, we need to know who we are first before we try to know others. Knowing within yourself that you are worth it will change your perspective on how people should treat you. Knowing who should stay and who should go in your life will give you inner peace. Of course, knowing what matters to you personally is going to give you the confidence to stand up for what you think is right, and for what you believe in. So I encourage everybody to love yourselves first before we try to love others, because the love we should give others is the love that overflows from the cup that we give ourselves. Don’t forget that you matter.
“‘I am the Alpha and the Omega,’ says the Lord God, ‘who is, and who was, and who is to come, the Almighty.'”
Revelation 1:8 NIV