I know, I might have been a few days late with this ‘new year, new me’ shebang. But you know what? One of the main thing that this past decade taught me was to never rush, and to just take my time. So I am doing just that.
I was thirteen when the decade started, and now at twenty three, it has ended. There are so many things that I have learned, discovered, and have just accepted as the years progressed. Not to be a bummer, but I have lost so many people that I loved; my Lolo Daniel, my Mama Ena, my Mommy Ellen, and my Tito Dong. Although, I did gain a beautiful sobrina who bears the same name as my paternal grandmother: Ellen.
In the 2010’s, I have had my fair share of heartbreaks. I had to part with my high school sweetheart, of whom I think was my childish yet first love. There were countless boys of whom I never really dated but loved back in university. There was this joke among my friends that I had a ‘guy’ in every college at our university. Funny, but true if you come to think of it, ha! Then there was Micah, of whom I thought the world of, and the one I thought I would eventually marry. It was so silly of me to think that, but it was not dumb of me. I loved each of every one of them, but one more than the other, perhaps. To be quite frank, I am hoping that in the 2020’s I will, eventually, find the one for me. I smile as I think of one guy, but I still am not sure. No rush, really. Not at all.
In the 2010’s, I have reached some of the best milestones in my life. I graduated high school and got my undergraduate degree. Man, I was so happy when I graduated. I mean, 16 years of studying is no joke! So imagine my happiness once I held my diploma in my hands. It was so surreal. But then again, there is more to life than just classrooms and offices. I knew I was not in my happiest state, so I did something about it.
In the 2010’s, I have travelled–like, really travelled for the first time. If my memory serves me right (and it usually does, lol), it was in 2015 when I backpacked across Southeast Asia for the very first time. I was about to turn nineteen, and was bound to graduate university the next year. So my mother gifted me with a plane ticket to Thailand. For the next few weeks, I travelled through Thailand, Cambodia and Vietnam. This trip made me fall in love with the beauty of life, the world, and its people. I knew, right then and there, that there was no turning back. I had caught the travel bug, and I will never be the same again. My life had immensely changed for the better. It really did.
In the 2010’s, I have lived in four different continents. How crazy does that sound? Growing up, I have always lived in Asia. This was something that was just familiar to me, and I never thought I would move out. Well, there was a dream that someday I would live in New York City, and guess what? That dream actually happened! I was twenty when I moved to North America, and living there was just such a dream come true! How many people can actually say that they have spent the majority of their early twenty’s just living in the Big Apple? That was such a ‘pinch me’ moment. Then at twenty two I had volunteered as an ESL Teacher and eventually ended up living in Africa for half a year. After that, I had spent some months living in Europe. Man, my life is one crazy roller coaster. Honestly, I would not have it any other way.
In the 2010’s, I have realised what the beautiful and ugly parts of me were. I have learned how to emphasise the beautiful parts of me, and I have also learned how to work on the ugly parts of me. Some of these life lessons were learned the hard way, but more often than not, I have learned these whilst just looking back at old journals that I have written. Crazy as it may seem, but I have been journal-ing since I was ten. This hobby just turned out to be one of the most amazing things that I have ever done. Sometimes I like to look back at journal entries I have written at certain parts of my life and realise how far I have come in life. I just love it so much. Writing has been, and will always be, such a pivotal part of my life. I have no idea what I will do without it.
There are so many things to do, things to work on, and things yet to be discovered. I do not know what the 2020’s hold, but I do have an idea on what things I would like to achieve. One thing I love about myself is my capability to actually do the things that I am passionate about, and the goals that I have set for myself.
The 2020’s will be my greatest, most blessed, and best decade yet. I will take my time, I will rest every once in a while, and I will do my best.
My mother always said, “Whatever worth doing is worth doing well.”
That is something that I will take with me in the years to come.
All will be well, I know it. Life is good, and I am certain that this journey is far from over. As a matter of fact, it is just getting started.
Let us see what the 2020’s holds for all of us. I just cannot wait!
“My command is this: love each other as I have loved you.”
John 15:12 NIV